And I begin . . .

What does she have to say? Is there anything here for me? I imagine that is what you come here thinking. My intention with this space is to capture my experiences on the path I’m walking. I’ll tell you a little about what brought me to this place, a transformation in thinking that has occurred for me and finally bring you along as the journey continues.

My intention for quite some time was to find a way to be an example that change can happen for an out of shape, overweight, middle aged, post successful career, stay at home discontent mother of two. I am that example and want to communicate that if it can happen for me it most certainly can happen for you. I want to teach you to change the thinking that keeps you stuck and give you the tools to propel your dreams forward.

Right now, right here, today, put aside that thought in your head. You know. The one that is now saying “but I’ve tried before and it’s never worked, why on earth would it work now”. It is that very thought, that very limiting thought, that prevents change from actually occurring. When we tell ourselves we can’t, we don’t. We we tell ourselves we can, we do!

So back to my intention. After studying with Dr. David Simon, Deepak Chopra, davidji, Claire Diab and the other wonderful Master Teachers at the Chopra Center, I found myself with four certificates and no clue what I was going to do next. I could teach Primordial Sound Meditation, Seven Spiritual Laws of Yoga and the Chopra Center Perfect Health Lifestyle Program. In fact, I was teaching meditation and yoga on a weekly basis. In my home, in my downtown office, at a local yoga studio for a while, at a corporation for their employees and even at a domestic violence agency as a volunteer. Still, it didn’t feel complete. I wanted a way to share what I’ve learned on a regular basis without the constraints of time and space. (I travel a lot) I set my intention. I reflected on it regularly. I meditated. I developed a regular asana practice and my life started flowing. The lastest is the possibility of blogging for Yoga Teacher Journal online. Got me thinking… why not blog whether I get that gig or not. So here I am. And so are you. The following was the first ever public blog post by me. (I guess the one you just finished reading was the second.)

“Thought of the Day”

“Because how we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives” Annie Dillard

It used to be that every morning when I woke up my mind started rushing with thoughts of all that needs to be done by me today. My kids need attention, my work needs attention, my husband even requires some attention now and then. One day, I noticed that “I” had not made the list of things that need attention. I woke up, 47 years old, out of shape, overweight with a general feeling of unease in my body, mind and spirit. I knew I needed a shift, a change of perspective but I wasn’t sure where to look for that. So, I took to the internet. It was there I reconnected with things that interested me 30 year before. Before “life” and all the “shoulds” took over. Meditation, Yoga, the Yoga Sutras of Pantanjali. I somehow knew my answer was there, within this philosophy, this roadmap of how to live a productive, content life. Notice I didn’t say happy, not sure what the heck that really even means as it shifts for me daily.

And so I began to learn, shifted in my thinking, and ultimately found more peace in my life. I found the Chopra Center for Wellbeing and fell in love with Dr. David Simon and Deepak Chopra, davidji, and what they were teaching. I learned to meditate and the power that came with that astounded me. All Chopra workshops have yoga classes twice a day. I was reintroduced to an asana practice. I read about eastern philosophy. And I meditated twice a day for most days. And what I noticed, over time, was that my morning anxiety was less. When I took time in the morning to meditate and a short asana practice, the anxiety of the day that overwhelmed me as I awoke was no longer there. I greeted the day with peace and love in my heart rather than with fear and the feeling of being overwhelmed by my life. These are the gifts that a daily meditation and yoga practice brought to my life.

I signed up to learn to teach meditation and yoga to deepen my practice. I wanted to deepen my understanding of my self and my place in the universe. It was never my intention to teach these to others but that is what unfolded. My joy for what I was learning and how it changed my life propelled me forward in my studies. I am a certified Primordial Sound Meditation teacher, Seven Spiritual Laws of Yoga instructor and Ayruvedic Lifestyle Educator through Chopra Center University. I teach others as I want to help others have access to all the learnings I did that caused a profound shift for me. I believe it is my Dharma, my purpose of life, to help others break free from the limits put on us by our thoughts. I want to give people tools to find themselves again.

As I stand on the front of my mat every morning for Sun Salutations (surya namaskar) with my hands at my heart, I breath in and feel lucky to be here another day. I reach up my hands to sky and notice I am opening my body to take in all the energy of the universe and as I bend forward, hinging at the hips bringing my hands to my feet, Pada Hastansana (Hand to foot pose) I am taking all that universal energy into my core.. and so it goes…

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